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i am just an old, regular mommy.

change is in the air, everywhere...

.... not just in washington dc!!

that's right... you're being REDIRECTED.  here is my new weblog: kristenhopkins.wordpress.com

don't panic!  if you forget, this message will stay on here for at least a month.  and, everything you know and love about the original organized chaos is located on the new site.  (i didn't even change the name!)

so, please bookmark the NEW weblog address, and i'll "see" you there! 


January 18, 2009 in unfiled | Permalink | Comments (0)

clearly, she's learning something at that fancy school...

the other night, jonathan was headed upstairs with arwen while i was putting milo to bed. jonathan reminded arwen to be quiet so that she didn't disturb milo.

arwen's response was: "daddy, i'll be as silent as the h in spanish!"

January 16, 2009 in arwen | Permalink | Comments (0)

frequent, emotional texter

so, one of the things that i love about my pinkberry is the way one enters text.  if you've seen (or have) one, you know what i mean... if you don't, there's no use in explaining because there's no way to accurately tell you what i mean without showing you one in person.

so, the long and the short of it is, when you type something in, the device sometimes has to guess what you're saying.  this makes it fast and easy to type things out... however, the buttons to enter the word "gray" can also enter "heat."  the phone keeps track of the user's frequently typed words, so that it can make the BEST guess and the user doesn't have to go back and do too much correcting (hopefully), and nine times out of ten, it does this well.  however, sometimes it just can't guess, such as in the examples of "see"/"are" or "hey"/"get".

and then there was the time i was talking cowboy hats with stacie and realized that "hat" and "gay" can be interchanged.  THAT was confusing.

so today i was messing around on the pinkberry and i found the "custom dictionary", which is the words that, over time, have been added to the dictionary because the device picks them up as words that i use frequently enough in emails and in texts that they are now recognized as regular vocabulary.

and now, for your amusement.... here are some of my favorite words, according to my pinkberry:

arwen/Arwen/arwen's
ass/ASS
bitty
bourne (as in, the bourne movie series... i must have been discussing matt damon)
burritos (this wasn't in the regular dictionary?? dang.)
caffeinated
castlevania
doofus
douche/douchebaggery
dyson/Dyson
eeeeew/Ew/ew (this phrase, in various forms, is apparently popular)
fuck (including 8 variations of this word... no lie)
ginormous
jackass
juwanna
karma
mcnugget/mcsteamy/mcvet (representing commentary on grey's anatomy... oh and mcdonalds)
meelsy (as in a nicname for milo: NINE variations)
mmmkay
nutso
pedi/pedicure/pedicurist (???)
perineums (what!?!)
pervy (as in pervert-like... ha!)
pissed/PISSED/pissy
sassified
shizzle
sister (again, why "custom" on this one?)
sononeam (i don't know what this is, what i meant, or when i ever typed it)
speedo (!)
starbucks (no surprise here)
stinkbutt
swizzles (a word i use for swords, as in the ones jonathan collects)
teriyaki (mmmm....)
ulcerative
undead
underarm
vicodin
woowoo
xanax (to go with the vicodin?)
yoda
zzz

January 14, 2009 in things i find funny | Permalink | Comments (2)

every now and then, i find something online that totally sucks me in and i become emotionally involved.  (hide your surprise.)

last night, thanks to postsecret leading me to this website and then to this blog, i have, once again, become emotionally involved.

basically, the postsecret posting made me aware of a disease called spinal muscular atrophy, or SMA.  it is the number one genetic killer of infants under the age of 2.  generally speaking, these kiddos are diagnosed around 6 months and, in severe cases, their bodies rapidly fail them (while their minds remain intact) and in most cases won't live to see their second birthday.  sad?  an understatment.   what's worse?  a cure is possible now.  yet, children are still dying because the research isn't finished yet.

SMA has been identified as one of the most curable neurological disorders today... however, research is desperately needed.  here's where you come in -- and it's free.  you simply have to sign the petition, which you can find here, that lets your representative know that you care about SMA and wish to have funding available for research NOW. 

kids are dying... 7.5 million americans, or 1 in 40, are carriers for the disease and an estimated 1 in 6,000 children are born with some type of SMA each year.   that's a lot of kids, folks!

one of those sweet babies is the amazing gwendolyn strong.  her parents, bill and victoria, are the sponsors of the above petition and have dedicated their lives to spreading awareness of SMA.  their blog is joyful, heartbreaking, tear-jerking, and inspiring.... and i should know, because i sat here last night and read the entire year and a half of posts.

so please, do two things that will take you two seconds and will cost you nothing.  one, go sign the petition!!!  this is what you'd be supporting:

For the first time, legislation has been proposed in the United States Congress to allocate federal resources to non-profit and research organizations focused solely on finding a treatment and/or cure for SMA.

i know you support that!

now, number two is to  bookmark gwendolyn's blog and check in on her once in awhile.  if you are the praying type, say a prayer for her strength and the strength of her parents to endure this fight. if you are the scientific type, then check in to see about new findings or petitions or sponsoring opportunities that might support the strongs and the other 600 babies that will be born with SMA this year alone.

and if you still don't want to do either of those things, then go hug your children, or your dog, or your mom, or your neighbor, and simply be thankful for each and every moment.

January 04, 2009 in current events | Permalink | Comments (2)

stolen!

yup yup. i stole this whole questionnaire from angela, who got it from somewhere else.  my post won't be nearly as amazing as angela's, who had a much more interesting year than i.  however, here goes... i'm always up for a little self-disclosure, at least when it's in written form. :)

What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?

i climbed everest. did you miss that post?  just kidding.  hmm. i don't know?  oh, here. i've got one. i let go some body image issues.  sure, i'll wear a swimsuit. sure, take my picture. (but, do NOT take a picture of me in a swimsuit -- to be clear, those are TWO SEPERATE EVENTS.)  am i at my best weight?  nope; not at all.  but i don't really care. victory!

Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

i will not answer this; i don't like new year's resolutions.  i think people in general should just resolve to always do their best, learn from their mistakes, and welcome personal growth, and that they should do this everyday, not just january 1st.

Did anyone close to you give birth?

YES.  my "cousin" kristina and my dear friend lily both had babies in '08.  and so did jenny, and carolyn, and i can name even more.  but i'll stop there.

Did anyone close to you die?

no, thankfully.

What countries did you visit?

i honestly can't remember if i ventured over the canadian border this year, or if it was last?  no, it was last -- 2007 -- because i haven't been since milo was born.  sigh.  i've been here all year.

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?

see resolutions question above... there are a lot of things i could "have" but there is really nothing i "need".  i have a great marriage, 2 wonderful kids, a roof over my head.... i am wealthy in many ways and hope this continues.  oh, but i do hope to continue to grow and learn and all that stuff.

What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

march 12 -- i tried to return to "work".

june 4 -- milo is hospitalized on his 6-month birthday for an asthma attack.

july 1 -- done with "work".  even part-time.

september 2 -- arwen's first day of kindergarten.

halloween -- milo took his first steps.

november 4 -- i actually felt as if i were part of history in the making.

What was your biggest achievement of the year? 

hmm... i don't know.  i guess it would be making the transition from parenting 1 to parenting 2.  but that is honestly still a work in progress.

What was your biggest failure?

i don't know that i had a "failure" in '08.  did anybody really? see above.

Did you suffer illness or injury?

besides the common cold, and strep? nope.  this has been a great year, with ulcerative colitis largely in remission.  i am thankful for that. 

What was the best thing you bought?

you know this one too:  the BlackBerry, lovingly referred to by me as my pinkberry. it has changed my life and i love it.  so there.

Whose behavior merited celebration?

i can't believe i'm going to say this, but arwen's.  she still has her occasional fit, and she still drives me up the wall, but generally speaking, she has seen some major behavioral shifts for the better. and, as i have transitioned to being a parent of 2, she has transitioned to big sisterhood very well. so yay, arwen. and yay for the really expensive school that has helped her learn some if it.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? 

hmm.  how about the american media?  from the election coverage to sensationalizing stories about death (caylee anthony) to mocking less mainstream families (pregnant man), the media never ceases to amaze me, and not in a good way.

Where did most of your money go?

oh lord. to the grocery store, and to the gas pumps for the first half of the year.  seriously?  we have very little disposable income.  almost all of it goes to (attempt to) cover our bills.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?

watching milo's growth and development, from newborn "bundle" to tiny walking man! 

seeing arwen grow in many ways, specifically socially and interpersonally.

the presidential election.

What song will always remind you of 2008?

"viva la vida" by coldplay.  not only was it released this year, but the entire album has been playing in my car nonstop since october.  and i will always remember arwen's love of that song and her little five-year-old voice singing it on car trips (along with "cemeteries of london", also on that album). 

Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? b) thinner or fatter? c) richer or poorer?

a) huh? i think i'm equally happy as i was this time last year.  well, wait.  this time last year i was more sleep-deprived, i think. so maybe i'm happier now. 

b) thinner, by default, since i was only a few weeks postpartum at this time last year (but that isn't saying much).

c) neither richer nor poorer.

What do you wish you’d done more of?

sitting on facebook wasting time.  just kidding.  i don't know... appreciating the moments? 

What do you wish you’d done less of?

yelling at arwen. being cranky.  worrying about money.

How did you spend Christmas?

spent christmas morning at home and then the afternoon over at dad's house.

Did you fall in love in 2008?

yes, in two ways, and both with milo.  first, i did the "in love" with your newborn thing. only i will say that happened THIS year, not last, despite the fact that he was born in december of '07. some mothers fall in love with their children immediately (as i did with arwen).  for others, or for other children, the bonding process is different.  i LOVED milo from moment one.  but i fell (insanely) in love with him over about six weeks.  that's not a bad thing; just the way it happened for us.

then, much later in the year, there was a moment (this month actually) that i was putting milo back to bed after his usual midnight-ish awakening.  he rolled over onto my arm, wrapping himself around it and resting his head on my shoulder.  in that moment, as he slept on me, i could feel his gentle breathing, and his heart beating, and feeling of total love, trust, and connection with him.  it was then that i think i actually felt my heart swell with love in a way i never have before. 

What was your favorite TV program?

i can't pick one.  there are many. if you read this blog, you should be able to recite these with me as you read them:  the amazing race.  so you think you can dance. desperate housewives.  30Rock. gray's anatomy.  scrubs.

oh, and here's one that only applies to '08:  the election coverage by saturday night live, specifically tina fey as sarah palin.  good stuff.

What was the best book you read?

uh, i'm ashamed to say that i didn't read a book in '08.  sad, but true.

What was your favorite film this year?

i loved ironman, believe it or not. and i also liked the dark knight.

What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?

i turned 31 on december 13.  it was a great night out with my family including my mother who was in-town for the weekend.  we ate japanese food and did some christmas shopping.  oh, and we had milo's birthday party that day too. it was a good day!

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

i don't know. i think if jonathan had a benefitted job, it would have made things more satisfying for BOTH of us. he would have had paid time off which would have been nice for him, and we would be less stressed out in general about his job stability. 

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?

omg, as always, i don't have a personal fashion concept.  this questionnaire is not made for stay-home moms.

What kept you sane?

my husband, the occasional massage or pedicure, and my good friends who text with me, eat sweets with me, facebook with me, and read my blog.  oh, and writing here.  writing is therapeutic.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

barack obama.  clearly.

What political issue stirred you the most?

good grief, this is a great year to ask this question.  i will actually do something non-election related, since y'all already know how i feel about that... i will say elliot spitzer's choice of extramarital activities stirred me up pretty significantly.   as did john edwards', now that i think of it.

Who did you miss?

i miss my grandfather (in general).  i miss colorado and all of the people there.  i miss my mom and my sister because they live far away.  same ole.

Who was the best new person you met?

my friend christie.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.

it's ok to need help.  and, if you need something, you have to open your mouth and say so.  even if you think you shouldn't have to.  and even if you don't want to. 

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

"you go backwards, and then, you go forwards again."  - coldplay

January 02, 2009 in unfiled | Permalink | Comments (2)

infomercial

have you been wondering where your hopkins family christmas card is?

well, do i have news for you!

this year, the hopkins family christmas card is in fact a HAPPY NEW YEAR card, and will be coming soon to a mailbox near you... as long as i have your current address!

has the card been ordered yet? heck no!  has it even been created yet?  nope on that too. 

HOWEVER, professional photographer (and awesome guy) gray hamner took pictures of my kiddos today... so now i've got something to work with.  and as soon as i get the shots from him, they're getting uploaded to shutterfly, and...

that's right... coming soon, but not yet... stay tuned, 'cuz it's gonna be great!  :)

December 28, 2008 in current events | Permalink | Comments (1)

a very quick vent

i hate this time of year -- when it comes to television, that is.

this time of year is WORSE than summer, because in the summer, the networks put on filler shows that may actually be really good (ahem, SYTYCD) and some that totally AREN'T good, but you don't care, because nobody else knows you're watching.  OR, you're busy doing fun stuff outside in the warm sunshine and you don't even care that the tv doesn't have new shows.

but in december through mid-january, UGH.  no new shows. nothing but cheesy christmas spectaculars, re-runs, and infomercials.  and it's cold and windy and gray outside, and damnit, i want some good tv.  BLECH!

i have no choice but to dedicate my time to playing scramble and stalking people on facebook.  at least i am doing so by the warm, soft glow of the christmas tree!

December 17, 2008 in brain-death (aka television) | Permalink | Comments (0)

if only i'd had my real camera, and not just my phone

i took this tonight. it's one of my favorite pictures of arwen, ever.  partly because it's just cute. and partly because she said, "take my picture!" (which she never does.)

but MOSTLY because right before i took this, she told me, seriously and quietly, "mommy. i am a rock star." 

Arwen rock star

December 15, 2008 in arwen | Permalink | Comments (4)

here's one for you... (dreams)

it's been awhile since i had a dream about colorado.  but here was my one from last night:

i'm on a bicycle.... it's hot. and pitch black outside.  i realize that i'm biking on a highway: interstate 25, to be exact. i see the colfax exit and realize i'm in denver.  i look down, and realize i'm not wearing my sweater anymore, and that i'm only in a bra. but i have no idea where it is, and i'm on a bike.

i bike to the i-70 exit, where i turn around to head back south, and now i'm in running gear and am running. my goal is to run back to the colfax exit.  apparently, i'm exercising. which is surreal in and of itself. ;)

the scene skips... i've picked up 3 ipods along the course of my run (none of them mine... and in real life, i don't own an ipod) and am dressed in normal clothes.  i am headed to meet jason, johnny, jonathan, and mandy moore (the singer) for dinner at an asian restaurant.  someone tells me it's midnight, which makes sense, since it's dark out.  i'm STARVING from the bike and the run.

then, milo wakes me up.

it's been awhile since i've had a dream about denver....i woke up missing it terribly.  and, if i can dream about the interstate and wake up sad, i must really, REALLY miss it.

oh, and for the record...i've NEVER had a dream about mandy moore. really, i haven't.

December 10, 2008 in dreams | Permalink | Comments (1)

milo turns 1

my baby. my sweet baby.  my sweet baby that got me up at 4:15 this morning and didn't let me go back to sleep.  yes, that perfect little man turned 1 last thursday... which, of course, was met with both joy and grief.  joy in that i have a healthy, happy, wonderful 1-year-old.  grief that my "baby" is growing up before my eyes.  because you see, i'm one of those weird moms that LOVES the baby stage...newborns are wonderful.  toddlers?  they require a lot of chasing.  sigh. 

anyway, here is my "then and now".  more pictures to come after his party on saturday!!

december 4, 2007:

Milo 013

december 4, 2008:

Milo 426

December 09, 2008 in Milo | Permalink | Comments (3)

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